Thursday, May 19, 2011

Just a bit of frustration

I have a love/hate relationship with many things. Sad I know. One is being a dietitian. On the one hand, I like being able to have the knowledge to keep my family healthy. I was completely anal about my gestational diabetes, BUT I also knew exactly what needed to be done. I was SERIOUSLY the perfect patient with GD.

On the other hand, I think that OTHER people are more of the food police for ME than I am for them. For example. Last night was a chocolate fondue party for 4 ladies in our ward having new babies. Two of my friends walked in, saw me and said, "let's see what the dietitian is eating." I love these two ladies. I KNOW they didn't mean anything by it. Granted it made me a tad embarrassed because I HAD over-indulged a little BUT in my defense, the rice crispy treat was clinging to the one next to it and since I didn't have any utensils to separate them I just decided to take them both. There was also just SO many things I wanted to taste and I DID leave a lot untasted too.

I'm the first to admit that I have a sweet tooth that will probably take getting diabetes or the rest of my life to conquer completely (which ever comes first). I also admit that the first three months of pregnancy are so rough that I don't care WHAT I eat because if I get anything, I'm happy. That 3 months of bad habits is hard to break so I know I need to work on that. I just wish people would STOP seeing and commenting on what I do and implying that it's okay because I'm the EXPERT. I know I have challenges. We all do. It just makes me feel more guilty and a LITTLE more testy because I feel like they are using my bad habits to rationalize their own which is NOT cool. Anyway, that's my frustration for today. Then again, I guess my guilt will give me a jump start on doing better right?

3 comments:

Amy said...

That would be frustrating. Hope today is better for you;)

Brittany & Garrett Best said...

I'm sorry! I would feel the same way as you, don't worry. And I will admit, I'm the biggest rationalizer when it comes to sweets. It's a very bad habit I need to conquer.

Tim and Ashley Tappana said...

You are one of the most fit people I know! On top of that...you're pregnant...and as far as I know...that's pretty much the only time you can get away with eating anything and everything you want :). Don't worry about what people think . They're probably just trying to justify themselves because you're gorgeous and they want to be just like you!